8/31/2012

Everyone could use a Lifesaver

Every sailor knows
that every sea has a storm
but still they set sail
facing the unpredictable
and at first,
they believe that the trip will go smoothly
for the skies are clear
and the waves are small
they forget that any second, trouble may come
and then when an unexpected storm comes
they aren't prepared
so they panic
and drown.
Why the trouble in my heart
I long for peace
Why the weakness in my feet
I long for strength
Why the sorrow in my soul
I long for joy
Why the blindness in my eyes
I long to see
Why the emptiness inside
I long for love

But why is there longing in my mind
when I have received

The peace
When troubled
The strength
When weak
The Joy
When there was sorrow
The sight
When couldn't see
The love
When i had none
And a promise .. for a life longing free.


Rest

I dare you to drift off into that deep zone
where pretty pictures play on the screens of your eyelids
where the secrets you've not yet discovered
become known
and where fear's mysterious ways are triggered into reality
I dare you to take a step into the land of dreamers
where every sleeper lands
when the moon is high, above the sky.

8/30/2012

The sad thing about this world is that most of the time we fear man more than we fear God
even though we know we are all mere belongings of God
not men.
Faith is just like bungee jumping
anytime you go down
something always lifts you back up
you cant see the force
but you can feel it

Father

When I'm drowning
I'll offer you my hand
and you'll take it
no matter how dirty I am
when I'm lost you'll have to show me the way
without you
I wont last a day

Forgotten Unfinished Lyrics

[ lyrics written by 15 year old me and music made up by Sveta Romanyuk, we sang this song everytime we were together, but we kept forgetting or losing the chords for almost every song we wrote so we lost sight in our "music industry" ]

It seems as if we're living in a fog
and every day as we get up
 trouble showers us like rain

(chorus) 
but i know of a better way 
so let me say
shine your light, shine it bright
and with every passing day 
let us press on towards the sky
and with our hearts on fire
we will show people the way

But then sometimes our life journey seems so long
sometimes staying on the straight path 
is the hardest thing to do

as you go just keep your eyes set on the goal
because soon we'll be together
on the streets all filled with gold

(Chorus)

so this is the better way
so sing with me 
shine your light, shine it bright
and with every passing day 
let us press on towards the sky
and with our hearts on fire
we will show people the way

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I go through each day
I read and I pray
but its hard to be like Jesus
in all of my ways
cause I'm not a perfect person
i make many mistakes

Chorus:
its the choices you make
that make life this way
but i say just chose Jesus
and nothing else will matter
cause he mends every heart
that's every been shattered

so what do I do
to pull myself through
there's so many distractions
preventing me from you
still I want to be an example
of the living truth

Bridge:
let go of what's holding you back
find Jesus don't look at the past
you'll get there i promise you that
find Jesus and he'll rid the weight off your back
he'll rid you of sorrow and pain
just look and he'll show you the way

(15 years old)

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When your friends have left your side
and you have no one else to cry to
you just look up at the sky
and be happy cause ill always
be there beside you

(chorus)

my child ill always be your friend
from the beginning, the middle to the end
ill be your shoulder to cry on
and ill chase away your fears
you'll never be alone

When your worn out and your tired
and you don't know who to run to
ill just send you a little smile
you'll know that no one can love you
like i do

when you have something to share
but there's no one who will listen
and it seems like life aint fair
keep in mind what I told you
let your spirits be risen

Bridge:

even through the toughest storm
you just call out to me
say Jesus I need you
and you'll hear me
just listen for my quiet whisper




in 2010


happiness
we all think we have it
we all say we have it
such liars
and people fall for the acts we put on
when deep down inside
they do the exact same play of a role

and we often wonder
where can i find this entriguing feeling people call happiness?
we search miles and miles
and still cannot seem to find it

is it something we recieve?
something we work for?
something we have to find?

we think happiness only works for big things
i have money
i must be happy
i have somewhere to live
yes, i suppose i am happy

and the little things
the things that spark the fire of happiness
we dim and hide away
those things dont matter
they are but a spec of dust in our lives

foolish people that we are

dont you see the little boy
no home
no family
no warmth
but he still has a smile on his face thats says
i have hope
and that
is happiness

what about the girl who gets bruised
by the untrue images people hammer upon her
but she looks up at the sky everynight
knowing
i have someone who loves me
he gave up his life for me
i am happy

and if only we were stripped of all our belongings
we would learn of happiness
for we would grasp tightly to the hand
which poured out blood for our life
and only then we would see that

nothing else in the world
nothing
can bring you happiness like the grasp of the one
who is the creator of happiness itself.
Gods mercy is so much more
so much more than i deserve
it can fill the ocean floor
so why don't i serve
why don't i praise
why don't i seek His face
Hes the only thing that matters
the only reason I'm alive
and even when everything shatters
He holds me with His grace

Why does He love me
why does He care
i cant bring him nothing
i come with empty hands
and He still thinks I'm something
He loves me either way
there's not enough words in the world to say
all the things that fill my heart
when He takes my life
all dull and grey
and brings me brighter days

Even when I'm not faithful
when I'm ungrateful
He looks down on me
and sees a captive who just wants to be free
He doesn't just leave me be
He rescues me
and that's when i realize
that He'll love me no matter who ill be
as long as i come down before Him
on my knees
and surrender openly

When i let go of everything
and give Him control
the leading role
that's when my heart comes clean
and gets filled with the joy that only He can bring
no other worldly thing
can fill that hole in my heart
Hes the only one who puts me back together
when i fall apart

And i hope that someday
you can find Him too
i hope you can realize that His love is true
its the only thing that matters
his deep deep love for YOU
i hope someday
you can feel the joy
the joy that he brings
when your under his wings
just surrender
that's all you have to do
come closer to Him and He'll come closer to you