You never know what you had until its gone
and the sad part is
we act like we don't even care
we waste moments
waste days
and we forget
that our days are short and limited
we forget to let people know we love them
we forget to forgive
we forget to say we're sorry
we forget to embrace
and cherish

and before we knew it
its too late
each opportunity has blown away in the wind

For if i love
i love unconditionally
no exceptions
no matter what
if they beat me
or spit in my face
if they pierce my heart
i will love in every circumstance
until the last beat of my heart
and if you ever took a step to be part of that heart
my love will now forever consume you
even when you close your eyes to it

My human mind
merely cannot comprehend
how perfection
could be so in love
with the most flaw filled being

we humans
we fail
fall
hurt
complain
hate
sin

yet we are showered with love every day

do you see it?
are your eyes open?

we are blinded by the imperfections in our hearts
but if we were to truly see
the beauty of perfection
we would never be thirsty again

how could this be?
that someone with a heart so dirty , with a mind so ugly
is so precious to the most holy

how could this be?
that the blood of perfection was shed
merely to make human perfect before its eyes
to wash out the past, the dirt, each flaw

and from then
no matter the failure
no matter the falling
as long as the soul believes

we are made perfect before the eyes of perfection

and from then
how could a believing soul
not be filled with tears of pure joy
not be overflowing with love
and not reach out day by day

in order to just have a glimpse of this perfection

i guess i just dream and fantasize too much
and when reality hits
it hurts
maybe i overdo everything
over the top
love over the top
hurt over the top
if im excited
im too excited
if im upset, its more than i should be
my life is like an exploding volcano
No predictions
No control
my mind is the same way
i dont know if its healthy
but all i know is
id rather be that than numb
id rather care too much than be ignorant
id rather feel to much than be cold
i dont know my right place
i dont know the right way to live
but maybe sometimes,
thats even okay,

Gods mysterious ways

sometimes
he surprises us with the ways unexpected
he sits us on a roller coaster and fills our hearts with that butterfly feeling
he lets us feel thrill and excitement
and in the instabilities of emotion in our lives
he shows us that WE're not in control but HE is

other times
out of our own fault he no longer holds our hands
hes fought hard enough and decides to save us by letting go
he lets us choose our own path
in which the end result is failure, disappointment, and captivity by our own selves
and in this state of weakness
God shows us that without him we cannot go on
without him we cannot go at all

when we get out of hand
he sets up invisible mirrors everywhere we go
and then we get so ashamed of the reflection
that we come to realization of how much mercy we need
and that's when we cherish Gods grace and forgiveness at our best ability

when we fall off course
and no longer have a destination
he puts roadblocks in our way so that we can no longer keep going
and have no choice but to turn around and go the direction of God
that's when he shows us that hes the only own

When our life is filled with sunshine and smiles
and God seeps through his blessings day by day
when our eyes are open to the beauty of life with God
he gives us room for growth through thankfulness
and he shows us that with him life is Good

Gods ways aren't always easy, his ways aren't always smooth
but as long as we realize that they are done out of love
we will always end up going his direction
and knowing that, is pure joy
because in the end
life without God is no life at all

its here.

Oh those summer nights
so wild, and free.
outside on a summer night
is where i want to be.
don't dare send me away
i still have so much to see
so much to hear, to smell, to feel
and the crickets, they're calling for me.
outside is where i spend all night
the moon has so much to share
so big and bright,
its beauty too much to bare
each star has its own story
the evening breeze,
proclaims Gods glory
don't find me inside on a summer night
outside is where i belong
singing life's peaceful song
ill indulge myself into the night
so far from life
but don't worry ill come back strong

i own rusty spoons,
i think they fell off of one of the moons,
its a gift from above,
the aliens sending me their love,
rusty spoons are so rare, when i think about it,
it stiffens my hair, because just to think that they came from up there,
makes them spoons im not willing to share,
because the truth is no one will care,
because finding believers is really rare.

Beautiful Nonsense

sometimes all it takes is to just get away
to be alone
drink some good coffee
listen to music
and your mind erupts
and your soul is overtaken with passion
that is when your heart creates the words you have been searching for this whole time

sometimes all it takes is just to look around
see the people around you, what they are capable of
people are beautiful
life is beautiful
embrace it, cherish it, live it
be alive
and not only for yourself but for others as well
help others have a pleasant visit on earth just by your presence

irradiate love, joy, passion, peace
be sympathetic, live for others

forget yourself, and only then will you find yourself

sometimes all it takes is time
time away from technology
time to embrace creation
to embrace all that surrounds you

open your eyes child
life is so much more

don't be afraid to let people in
let them peek inside your heart and soul
and let them be inspired

its okay to feel
its okay to fall
just make sure you get back up

be truthful
be honest;
with yourself, with others

don't miss your chance to let people know how you feel

tell people they are beautiful and tell them why

touch lives with your presence

give hugs, give kisses, embrace

find fulfillment in little things
find fulfillment in God

search for God
never stop
never let go
don't let the world drown you
keep swimming

cry, laugh, smile, yell

as long as you're real
as long as you're alive
don't let them take hold of you
don't let them destroy you

sometimes look up
sometimes close your eyes
but never look back

don't let hard times bring you down
let them make you stronger

don't let your mistakes define you
but let your imperfections make you different
don't be afraid of being different
be weird sometimes
be crazy
as long as you're passionate
as long as you're all in
body, mind, soul..
eloped in God

don't let your looks define your beauty
let your heart
the way you live
you way you love

remember, life isn't easy
but that's what makes it worth living
that's what makes it worth fighting for

make sure your scars heal
and make sure you're prepared for new ones

you were put on this earth to make beauty
to let God be seen
don't lose your chance
don't let your purpose go to waste

be beautiful
be you
be thankful
be true
let God define who you are
and who you are meant to be.

Conversation with God

Just trust, he whispers in my heart. Take a deep breath and let it all go. Let me handle it and let me guide you.
And next time, he says, talk to me about it.
I`ll always be there to listen and consult; but have your heart open to listen too.

So I did, I layed it all down before him, and he now was handling my life. I no longer had fear, and my doubts were replaced with strong confirmation.
He's the only one who will NEVER let me down, so that's where I rest, in his strong arms. There, I can face anything that comes my way.

find your value in Christ.
nothing else
dont let others determine who you are
dont let others decide for you
but decide on Christ
and he will make you the best you can be
and to be a creation, child, of God
someone who resembles him,
thats the coolest thing!
something that makes life worth living
something that makes good worth trying
let Christ decide,
its easier.

Sometimes all it takes is just to be alone
To put everything aside and to just breathe
Look up at the sky, at the trees and the birds
And see the beauty
The beauty of life
Sometimes all it takes is just to be a little bit old school
Just sit there with nothing else to do but think and observe
That's all it takes sometimes to help you find purpose and meaning in life
That's all it takes to bring back the sight of things you used to see but lost grasp of
Love life
Live life
Enjoy life
Don't make it chase you
Make it lead you along the path