Im learning to be content, with myself, my life ,and everything that I have. Ive always wanted more, better, and thats ok sometimes, but came the point where I had to learn to be thankful and satisfied. I dont live in my dream home or apartment, but at least I have a place to live. I dont have my dream body, but at least im healthy, alive, and someone loves me for who I am. I have more clothes than I need. I dont make lots of money or have an amazing proffesion, but I love my temporary job. I always have enough to have food on the table, and go out with friends.
This life teaches us to be needy, thirsty for more, for better. But I want to be thirsty for Christ, thirsty to be a better person, and things of higher importance.
We focus so much on impressing others, we care so much of peoples opinion. But we forget to care about what matters to God. Ive drowned myself in a continuous worry that someone might judge my place in life, look down on me. But Ive learned that theres better things to worry about, more important things like loving others, spreading joy, lending a hand, being friendly, serving, and genuinely doing thise things, not to impress others. We focus so much on whats temporary; making lots of money, having nice things, how many followers we have on instagram, how many likes we have, how popular we are, how hot we are. And I got to the point where I was addicted to it.
But now I want to focus on the big picture; that theres better, more intense and meaningful things in store for us. All else will fade away and then we will be left with nothing.
So i want to be careless, but careful, I want to think of higher things. Soak up life; live for relationships, experiences, journeys, sunsets, moments. Not for things and momentary pleasures. I want to be genuinely happy.
And then, if we are content with what we have, happy, we can share that with others, and God will give back and provide with more.
So I just want to say that no matter what, im happy with where im at. Im so blessed and thankful. I no longer want to care about lowly things. Things that are temporary are a waste of sweet precious time that you could be using to TRULY live and enjoy life.
People have been learning to live for themselves nowadays, for their own pleasure, gain, and attention. But I know someone who can fill all those voids.
So im learning to be content and happy with where im at, and to share that happiness with others.