Andrey and his friends introduced me to a hike we call Morrison.(http://alltrails.com/trail/us/colorado/mt-morrison-direct-east-face)
Now if I could describe this hike in any way, I'd say its like a 14er without the elevation. Morrison is if im not wrong about a 3 mile hike with a constant, ongoing, super steep incline. Me and andrey went once or twice last year..but I started hiking it by myself about two weeks ago. Its not an easy trail but my first time going up, I killed it! Slayyedd it. With fear of snakes being my drive I made it to the very top in 45 minutes. Everyone I told was pretty impressed because I guess thats a pretty good time. Now, the trail pretty much consists of two parts... the first part is the worst.. its the steepest and hardest on your body, the second part consists of mild rock climbing and scrambling up boulders. I did it three days in a row that week, and each time it took longer because my body was exhausted, but it did feel easier on my heart and lungs.
So here's where im going with this... a week and a half later I decide to go back up...and this time I learned a valuble lesson.
The first time I did Morrison I was on this streak of being very physically active and eating super clean... but last week, until this day, I completey destroyed everything. I ate junk all week; chips, desert, pizza, ice cream..
And I was a lot lazier then usual. Because of this (and my hurt ankle) I finished morrison (the whole thing) 15 minutes later than my fastest time, and with a sick feeling the whole way up.
I sufferred up that thing so much that I made myself a goal that I would never treat my body like that again. I plan on staying as active as I can and eating as clean as I can all week. So that next week when I do morrison again, I could possibly beat my time or at least be close to it. Most of all though, so that I could hike without feeling sick.
With all this being said..I truly realized that what goes in, does come out. I put junk in my body, I felt like terrible and got terrible results. When I took care of my body, I got results I was happy with and felt good about myself. I realized how truly important it is to stay away from unhealthy foods and to stick to the healthy eating lifestyle. So I hope I could get to the point where I dont fall into this junk food trap again.
Another reminder I took to myself from this, was that this totally applies to our spiritual health as well. If we watch junk, listen to junk, think about pointless things..then it will all come out and show on the outside. You will never progress in who you are, you will only slow down. What you put inside your spirutual life will affect your attitude, your personality, and your vibe. The more good you fill your mind with, and the more Christ you fill your heart with, the more you will show: joy, love, peace and other amazing qualities. You will get to where you want to spiritually and from there get even better. A healthy spiritual lifestyle wont make you feel sick as you walk on this trail of life.(how deep)
This makes me so thankful that God provides us with so many chances.
As much as we fall, consume junk, as often as we give up, or get stuck, life goes on and each new day we have the chance to change. That means you dont have to spend it being stuck in one place, you can try again, you can push harder, you can improve. So dont live your life thinking this is all you've got, this is all you're capable of. We all fall, and if I can get out of my junk food rut and pursue my goals then I can get out of my spiritually low rut. So can you! We all need to take every day to advantage and just try again from a clean slate.
I think we all fall, or get stuck in a rut once in a while to truly realize how much better life is when we are out of it. Maybe I think to much, but im glad I could take something for myself in random situations. Most of all I encourage all Colorado residents to hike Morrison at least once this summer. Because look how many lessons it taught me in just an hour. If you dont live in Co sorry. Jk... just going outside and enjoying nature teaches you so much in itself, you can learn from anything.
6/15/2016
5/09/2016
Still married
It hasn't even hit me that I'm married and it's already been a whole year since I said I do to my favorite person in the whole world. It seems like just yesterday I was getting ready to walk down the aisle, but here we are a year later having already made so much memories and fallen in love so much more. Its been a journey that I wouldn't replace with anything. There were ups and Downs but we have grown so much as people, as husband's and wife's, and so much closer that life right now just seems perfect. God seriously sent me the perfect man; one who loves me, spoils me, tries for me and always makes me feel like a princess. We have accomplished so much together already that the future just seems even brighter. I'm so excited for what's ahead and I'm so excited to face it with him; all the challenges and all the good times. We work so well as a team, we are insepperable, and I'm sure that bond will get that much stronger down the line. I have truly seen Gods hand in our lives and His love through Andrey. A year of Marriage is already longer than some have lived together, and it wasn't always easy, but it's always always been worth it. I never thought I could be so loved or love so much. My life is truly an adventure and a fairy tale and I'm so thankful and so blessed beyond belief. I can truly say I don't deserve such an amazing husband, but I sure am so glad to have him. ;)
Here's a glimpse of our year in no particular order.
Here's a glimpse of our year in no particular order.
4/18/2016
Lets talk about doubts, faith, and believing in ourselves.
I was recently reading Matthew and i came across the verse where Jesus states that if we had faith the size of a mustard seed we could move mountains. Have you ever tried it? Moving a mountain, or anything at all, merely with faith.
Close your eyes, think of an object, and believe that you could move it. Did it work? If it did, then I want to meet you because you have more faith than most of us. Every time i close my eyes in the back of my head i still have thoughts of unbelief, excuses on why i cant do it, and a preset notion already set in my mind that it would never work. But imagine if we had but a tiny speck of faith, all that we could do.
Lately Ive been drowning in doubt and unbelief, in myself, which comes down to being pretty equivalent to doubting God. Ive been working so hard on myself, trying to change how i see myself and what i think of myself but it keeps getting worse. Nothing anyone could tell me could change my mind. And trust me, my husband has tried ever since we got married. Im getting deep and personal here but i know i cant be the only one going through this.
This world gave us its qualifications of beauty, it tells us the way we should act: whats cool, whats trending, it constantly reminds us that we are not enough, that we must spend tons of money on perfecting our image and tons of time trying to fit in. And I am a poor victim of this dilemma. Constant comparison, constant discouragement, distrust, and so much doubt fills my heart. Oh evil world, what have you done to us?
I know that if you meet me, you would never think that i struggle with something as low and pathetic as self doubt, and a low self esteem. This me comes out when im alone, or at my lowest point. When im vulnerable, when im sad, and when im far from God, and its really ugly.
I spent my whole life knowing God, serving God, and loving God. But this world got the best of me, and everyday im fighting the demolish these ideas that satan put into my heart. "I;m ugly, I'm fat, not cool enough, not smart enough, not active enough," there are so many not enoughs'. But these are all mere ideas, and an idea is far from the truth.
There is one thing that I'm always sure of though, its that God knows the truth, He is the truth, and he shares that truth with us everyday. Most of the time, i just have a hard time listening.
If i had the faith of a mustard seed, I would KNOW that God made me perfect in His image. I would be sure in the fact that He loves me because He created me. If i had the faith of a mustard seed, there would be no comparison, no not good enoughs, no doubts, i would live my day knowing that i have a bigger purpose, that im important, and that i am loved for who God made me.
But, when I try closing my eyes and try believing in the fact that I am enough, that I am made beautifully in His image, i still have thoughts of unbelief, excuses on why it cant be true, and a preset notion already set in my mind that i could never believe in myself.
Man this is getting really really personal, but i promise i am going somewhere with this....
I am sure of one thing, its that I love God and that He loves me,
He loves me so much that He sent His son to die for me.
So the fact that i still go day by day doubting myself just proves my lack of faith.
Because God almighty, the creator of all, loves ME. He thinks im beautiful, He thinks im enough, He thinks im worth it. And that alone should be enough of a truth for me to believe in myself, and to love myself.
All it takes is for me to have faith, and to believe. And isnt that what I base my whole life on?
i realized all this thanks to one verse, a verse that made me feel ashamed in my lack of faith, a verse that made me reevaluate what i consider truth. If i believe in God, and the fact the He loves me, i should believe in myself, I should appreciate how He made me, and having doubt in myself is merely having doubt in Him.
Faith, faith in God is the answer to all of our problems, we must believe He has a better plan, we must believe He loves us, we must believe He made us beautiful . Because if we dont, then whats the point of living. Imagine if we truly believed in ourselves, all the things we could do, accomplish. If we experienced faith in full capacity we could do the unimaginable.
I am a lost soul, sucked deep into this world, but God never lets go, He always brings me home. I'm not going to change in a day, but as long as I believe and hold on to the truth, God will transform me, and heal me, and help me heal others.
Those of you struggling with the same thing, dont give up hope. There is an exit, and an entrance into a better life, where you KNOW you are beautifully made, and you know you are worth it.
I love you, and the fact the God loves you, should be enough to let you know that YOU are ENOUGH.
Close your eyes, think of an object, and believe that you could move it. Did it work? If it did, then I want to meet you because you have more faith than most of us. Every time i close my eyes in the back of my head i still have thoughts of unbelief, excuses on why i cant do it, and a preset notion already set in my mind that it would never work. But imagine if we had but a tiny speck of faith, all that we could do.
Lately Ive been drowning in doubt and unbelief, in myself, which comes down to being pretty equivalent to doubting God. Ive been working so hard on myself, trying to change how i see myself and what i think of myself but it keeps getting worse. Nothing anyone could tell me could change my mind. And trust me, my husband has tried ever since we got married. Im getting deep and personal here but i know i cant be the only one going through this.
This world gave us its qualifications of beauty, it tells us the way we should act: whats cool, whats trending, it constantly reminds us that we are not enough, that we must spend tons of money on perfecting our image and tons of time trying to fit in. And I am a poor victim of this dilemma. Constant comparison, constant discouragement, distrust, and so much doubt fills my heart. Oh evil world, what have you done to us?
I know that if you meet me, you would never think that i struggle with something as low and pathetic as self doubt, and a low self esteem. This me comes out when im alone, or at my lowest point. When im vulnerable, when im sad, and when im far from God, and its really ugly.
I spent my whole life knowing God, serving God, and loving God. But this world got the best of me, and everyday im fighting the demolish these ideas that satan put into my heart. "I;m ugly, I'm fat, not cool enough, not smart enough, not active enough," there are so many not enoughs'. But these are all mere ideas, and an idea is far from the truth.
There is one thing that I'm always sure of though, its that God knows the truth, He is the truth, and he shares that truth with us everyday. Most of the time, i just have a hard time listening.
If i had the faith of a mustard seed, I would KNOW that God made me perfect in His image. I would be sure in the fact that He loves me because He created me. If i had the faith of a mustard seed, there would be no comparison, no not good enoughs, no doubts, i would live my day knowing that i have a bigger purpose, that im important, and that i am loved for who God made me.
But, when I try closing my eyes and try believing in the fact that I am enough, that I am made beautifully in His image, i still have thoughts of unbelief, excuses on why it cant be true, and a preset notion already set in my mind that i could never believe in myself.
Man this is getting really really personal, but i promise i am going somewhere with this....
I am sure of one thing, its that I love God and that He loves me,
He loves me so much that He sent His son to die for me.
So the fact that i still go day by day doubting myself just proves my lack of faith.
Because God almighty, the creator of all, loves ME. He thinks im beautiful, He thinks im enough, He thinks im worth it. And that alone should be enough of a truth for me to believe in myself, and to love myself.
All it takes is for me to have faith, and to believe. And isnt that what I base my whole life on?
i realized all this thanks to one verse, a verse that made me feel ashamed in my lack of faith, a verse that made me reevaluate what i consider truth. If i believe in God, and the fact the He loves me, i should believe in myself, I should appreciate how He made me, and having doubt in myself is merely having doubt in Him.
Faith, faith in God is the answer to all of our problems, we must believe He has a better plan, we must believe He loves us, we must believe He made us beautiful . Because if we dont, then whats the point of living. Imagine if we truly believed in ourselves, all the things we could do, accomplish. If we experienced faith in full capacity we could do the unimaginable.
I am a lost soul, sucked deep into this world, but God never lets go, He always brings me home. I'm not going to change in a day, but as long as I believe and hold on to the truth, God will transform me, and heal me, and help me heal others.
Those of you struggling with the same thing, dont give up hope. There is an exit, and an entrance into a better life, where you KNOW you are beautifully made, and you know you are worth it.
I love you, and the fact the God loves you, should be enough to let you know that YOU are ENOUGH.
3/15/2016
Why I blog
I blog purely for myself. I do it to keep track of my thoughts, experiences, interests. Someday I'll look back and read all that I wrote, and I'll get to see the progress I've made in life, the changes I went through, and all the experiences I've had. I blog because I've always loved writing, Ever since I was a little girl I wrote stories, poems, and my thoughts in journals, which I had an overload of. And till this day it makes me happy. I don't think I would ever pursue anything more than just writing with this, I don't care to earn money with it, I don't care to please or impress people with it, I do it for pure enjoyment and I think pursuing anything else with it will ruin that. I'm an average writer, pretty mediocre, and I'm not trying to prove anything to anyone. But I do share my thoughts with others because maybe in some way God can impact someone through my experiences and thoughts. I see that blogging has become a trend, and almost a competition, and that makes me sad. In this society I wouldn't even consider myself a blogger, just someone who likes to write. So if you do read my blog, I hope you don't have high expectations, and I hope you enjoy it for what it it, just the thoughts of a 21 year old girl getting through life.
3/08/2016
Only you can tell yourself that you can't
The only person that can tell you that you can't, is you. I realized this while at the gym one day. All those you're not good enoughs, all those you don't belongs, all those you never wills, and all those you cants, are told by no one other than yourself. Sure others might say these things; but it's you who confirms, you who choses to accept, and believe those things about yourself. You are who you think you are, you may put up an image for others, but on the inside you're completely who you make yourself up to be. So if you want to be a better person, tell yourself that you can be, if you want to be in shape, show yourself it's possible, if you want to be smart, use your brain, if you want to be beautiful, believe that you are. The possibilities are endless when you let them be. You are your own destruction, you are your own strength. You are your own limits, your own possibilities. No one else can tell you who to be, and how to be. Never forget that. never let your biggest enemy be yourself.
2/29/2016
Go live, He provides
Luke 12:24 "Consider the ravens:they do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds!"
I've been thinking a lot about how I want to live my life, and what I want to do with it. And I came to the conclusion that thinking about that isn't necessary. Sure in certain situations you must plan ahead, but I'm talking about life as a whole. I decided that I'm not going to worry about my future and just take life day by day. Throughout my whole life God has provided for me, He always shows me that He knows what's best for me, and everything I've been through has shaped me and made me grow. I don't know how, and it's not my doing, but God just always made trusting Him easy for me. I never really planned out my life because God has showed me over and over that He provides. He showed me this through school, college, jobs, a husband and so much more. I never had a doubt that if I put my trust in God that He will always lead me somewhere that will bring him glory but will also benefit me. Of course I had my ups and downs ..as I got older I had to make bigger decisions, and trust got harder..but God always reminded me that I had no need to try to do things on my own, because that's always a fail.
This truth has literally made my life so easy, sometimes it blows my mind. So here's where I'm going with this...
The older I get the more I see how fast time flies, and we really don't have much time left on this earth. So while I'm here I want to give it my all, really use my abilities and talents, as well as take and embrace every opportunity that God puts in my way. I don't ever want to miss an opportunity just because its out of my comfort zone, or seems impossible. We all know that with God everything is possible. I choose not to hold on to things of this earth, specifically money.. as long as we balance it in a way that let's us get by and survive, I hope to never limit myself in seeing the world, or helping those in need. I would rather choose simplicity than luxury when it comes down to truly experiencing this huge world that God has made. I really learned to go for anything that will help me grow, help me truly love and enjoy life, and help me get closer to God. I dont want to settle for mediocre, i want to be the best I can be. Im so blessed to live in a time filled with opportunity, and peace, I hope to not take that for granted. Sure, life isn't as easy as I'm putting it out to be, we all face hard times and trials, but it really helps when you remind yourself that we are here temporarily, that God always provides, and that He will always lead you to where you need to be, and I say that from experience. I realize more and more that we will all die someday, but I hope I leave this life having fully lived, fully giving it my all, fully experiencing God, and fullfilling my purpose. I live by the truth that God provides, and I really reccomend it to everyone. It makes life so much more easier, so if you haven't yet, I really suggest you give it a try.
Love, Viki
MATTHEW 6:31-32
"So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?'or 'What shall we drink' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them."
I've been thinking a lot about how I want to live my life, and what I want to do with it. And I came to the conclusion that thinking about that isn't necessary. Sure in certain situations you must plan ahead, but I'm talking about life as a whole. I decided that I'm not going to worry about my future and just take life day by day. Throughout my whole life God has provided for me, He always shows me that He knows what's best for me, and everything I've been through has shaped me and made me grow. I don't know how, and it's not my doing, but God just always made trusting Him easy for me. I never really planned out my life because God has showed me over and over that He provides. He showed me this through school, college, jobs, a husband and so much more. I never had a doubt that if I put my trust in God that He will always lead me somewhere that will bring him glory but will also benefit me. Of course I had my ups and downs ..as I got older I had to make bigger decisions, and trust got harder..but God always reminded me that I had no need to try to do things on my own, because that's always a fail.
This truth has literally made my life so easy, sometimes it blows my mind. So here's where I'm going with this...
The older I get the more I see how fast time flies, and we really don't have much time left on this earth. So while I'm here I want to give it my all, really use my abilities and talents, as well as take and embrace every opportunity that God puts in my way. I don't ever want to miss an opportunity just because its out of my comfort zone, or seems impossible. We all know that with God everything is possible. I choose not to hold on to things of this earth, specifically money.. as long as we balance it in a way that let's us get by and survive, I hope to never limit myself in seeing the world, or helping those in need. I would rather choose simplicity than luxury when it comes down to truly experiencing this huge world that God has made. I really learned to go for anything that will help me grow, help me truly love and enjoy life, and help me get closer to God. I dont want to settle for mediocre, i want to be the best I can be. Im so blessed to live in a time filled with opportunity, and peace, I hope to not take that for granted. Sure, life isn't as easy as I'm putting it out to be, we all face hard times and trials, but it really helps when you remind yourself that we are here temporarily, that God always provides, and that He will always lead you to where you need to be, and I say that from experience. I realize more and more that we will all die someday, but I hope I leave this life having fully lived, fully giving it my all, fully experiencing God, and fullfilling my purpose. I live by the truth that God provides, and I really reccomend it to everyone. It makes life so much more easier, so if you haven't yet, I really suggest you give it a try.
Love, Viki
MATTHEW 6:31-32
"So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?'or 'What shall we drink' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them."
2/23/2016
21 years of living
Time is flying by so crazy fast, it felt like I'd be waiting eternity until I fly out to Florida for my birthday, and now the trip is just around the corner. Yesterday I was driving, and it only hit me then, that my birthday is this week and I didn't even pick up my free birthday gift at sephora! I honestly thought it was in like two weeks. But tomorrow I'll be another year older.
I'm so thankful to God for such a blessed eventful year. So much happened this year that it's hard to even keep up, so many major changes. I got married, that's pretty huge. I Moved to a new state, met so many new amazing people, got a job I love, traveled, hiked, climbed some 14ers, learned how to cook somewhat, had red hair, and the list could go on and on. I honestly think that this was my year of growth and transformation. All these big changes in my life also changed who I am. I had no choice but to become more open minded, more social, more accepting to stepping out of my comfort zone. I've learned so much about myself, good and bad. Its been an amazing journey. I'm so thankful for the people in my life.
My parents literally got me through 21 years of my life, always supporting me, teaching me, showing me how to be the best I can be. I'm so thankful that they are the way that they are. Im so thankful for my siblings that I absolutely adore! They are my best friends, and I wish I could watch them grow up, but the distance makes me appreciate them so much more. Im blessed with the best family, grandparents, cousins, aunts and uncles. I'm extra thankful for my husband..he has to deal with my brokeness, the wild child inside me, and he still loves me no matter what, he's my best friend in life and I cant imagine my life without him, I'm so blessed with his family as well, they are so accepting and loving. I'm grateful for all my new friends; that they accepted me, and are there for me. Angie, I wouldn't survive Denver without you, who else would go try out new places with me? I'm thankful for all my childhood friends, they also made me who I am, and I miss them all so much. (Thank you for always bringing out the adventurer in me)
God has blessed me so much in my life, and I don't understand why, but I live day by day with a thankful heart. Everything I've been through, only gets me closer to where I'm headed. I hope this 21st year of my life I can become an even better me. I'm excited for what's in store. Life is so grand and so precious and I plan to live every moment of it to the fullest, and even though I'm getting older..I forever refuse to grow up. #foreveryoung
Familia\Friends ⬇
First married hikes ⬇
Moab ⬇
I'm so thankful to God for such a blessed eventful year. So much happened this year that it's hard to even keep up, so many major changes. I got married, that's pretty huge. I Moved to a new state, met so many new amazing people, got a job I love, traveled, hiked, climbed some 14ers, learned how to cook somewhat, had red hair, and the list could go on and on. I honestly think that this was my year of growth and transformation. All these big changes in my life also changed who I am. I had no choice but to become more open minded, more social, more accepting to stepping out of my comfort zone. I've learned so much about myself, good and bad. Its been an amazing journey. I'm so thankful for the people in my life.
My parents literally got me through 21 years of my life, always supporting me, teaching me, showing me how to be the best I can be. I'm so thankful that they are the way that they are. Im so thankful for my siblings that I absolutely adore! They are my best friends, and I wish I could watch them grow up, but the distance makes me appreciate them so much more. Im blessed with the best family, grandparents, cousins, aunts and uncles. I'm extra thankful for my husband..he has to deal with my brokeness, the wild child inside me, and he still loves me no matter what, he's my best friend in life and I cant imagine my life without him, I'm so blessed with his family as well, they are so accepting and loving. I'm grateful for all my new friends; that they accepted me, and are there for me. Angie, I wouldn't survive Denver without you, who else would go try out new places with me? I'm thankful for all my childhood friends, they also made me who I am, and I miss them all so much. (Thank you for always bringing out the adventurer in me)
God has blessed me so much in my life, and I don't understand why, but I live day by day with a thankful heart. Everything I've been through, only gets me closer to where I'm headed. I hope this 21st year of my life I can become an even better me. I'm excited for what's in store. Life is so grand and so precious and I plan to live every moment of it to the fullest, and even though I'm getting older..I forever refuse to grow up. #foreveryoung
Familia\Friends ⬇
Nanny love ⬇
Jamaican me crazy ⬇
14ers ⬇
Garden of the gods ⬇
First married hikes ⬇
Red rocks concert ⬇
Chicago ⬇
Renaissance fair ⬇
Moab ⬇
Canada ⬇
Holidays ⬇
Portland ⬇
Thanks for reading, viki.
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